Oh my giddy giddy gosh! What the hell am I doing? Im recording a bloody album! How the hell did this happen? This is mental. I dont know why but today it hit me. Specifically when the string quartet came in and recorded Head on Me and Cry To Me. I sat down and listened to them play Head on Me for the first time and I am proud to say that I welled up. I didnt cry, but i did well up. WOWZERS. Then they played my arrangement of Cry To Me. Such a massive moment. Cant describe it without sounding like a twat thats had a “life changing” experience, but honestly, that was it. That was the moment when I realised that I hadnt just spent my days faffing around playing with vocal arrangements for fun, Id actually done something with them and now real people, real musicians were playing them. Mental.
Blue Daisy popped in to check out the choir recording. That was mental too. These girls are special. Marie-Claire, Marsha, Rachie, Abi, Kat, Jess, Jess, Jess & Jess, Debbie, Sophie, Sophie, Jas and Steph all sang their massive hearts out and the result also made me well up a bit. Wow Im such a pansy these days. I think my hard shell has gaps that are letting water in. Not sure about getting it fixed. I kinda like it.
I had to do some vocal retakes of the songs I wasnt happy with. 3 days in and im swanning around like I own the place so they came out easier than on the first day. Finally got used to singing in a massive empty room with headphones the size of sofas on and it turns out Benskilz is as much of a bozo as we all are so that was nice. Had to get my anger on for Whoops and then my love in for Head On Me. I think I now know what actors may feel like, surely it cant be too disimilar? Ill ask Dom. He went to Drama school, a fact that I only found out today, he was in an advert for a game in the early 80’s that Im really annoyed at myself for forgetting the name of.
And thats it. Done (sort of). How do i feel? I dont. Not yet. Its all a bit too overwhelming to feel anything at the moment so Ill let you know when its all sunk in a bit. Feels like Ive woken up from falling asleep in a bush after having the best dream ever.